I got in an argument with my mom the other day. She wanted to hang out Monday after work and I told her I'd see how I feel Monday cuz it was an insane weekend at work plus I was up really late Saturday night cuz the most amazing guy ever stopped by,but I didn't tell her about him(dalton). She started raising her voice and said I can't just get through life doing what I FEEL ....uh ok....that got me thinking I do everything based on how I feel. Like I felt it was so fun sleeping in my car with the homies...but I don't feel like doing that anymore....I felt like using drugs and did them so much for a couple years and I LOVED it!.....but some of this drugs make you go coo koo crazy so I don't feel like doing them anymore! I felt like I didn't want to go to jail...so I never used in drug court...
That's just to list a few...I never wanted to go through life doing what society tells us. I want/wanted to have as much fun as possible. That came with some costs defiantly! But I seem to go through phases. And now I'm at the phase where I want to fall in love, share my art and words, and keep things mellow and fun! I've got all this freedom now and I don't know who to share it with. I've been sharing it with dalton and that is so amazing! But I don't think he still thinks of me in a romantic way....